i realized why i feel so much more satisfied here at college than at home.
we are all here because of one ultimate goal. we want to be something, live some life, have some effect. it's a long (maybe endless) road to reach that point of satisfaction. it is here at college that i am doing almost everything in my power, with as much time as pheasalbe to reach that one goal. i always know what my one goal is but i never really dwell upon it. it's just there, waiting to be attained and being sought after.
but the glorious and hideous thing about college is that it distracts us from our main goal with tons of smaller goals and obligations. my focus in on what has be done within the semester, the month, the week, sometimes i'm focused (or extremely worried about) on a smaller goal that i have to accomplish in the day. in accomplsihing these smallers goals (for the most part) we can be contented in that we are making progress towards our ultimate goal.
however, we must not let the smallers goals and expectations of college consume us. we cannot become overwhelemed by thoughts of "i hate all this work." and though some of the work maybe bullshit, i have comfidence in this institution and believe that all this work that i'm going through is helping me prepare for the world (that's potsdam's job right?). i will always have in sight what i want to be, and overcome these obstacles that i have purposely put in front of me as an exercise.
the feeling of working hard towards the goal is rewarding.
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