i've witnessed, almost from the 3rd person, myself in it's entirety, thrown into a completely new life. i watched as i had to accept the new place - my surroundings somewhat foreign. i watched as i adjusted to a new diet. i watched as my schedule, the times i function, shifted and extended. i watched as myself - the boy made from home and the people that were of my childhood and teenage years - interact with a completely new group of people. for the past 4 months i have been detached, overwhelmed by all that was new, and from that place apart i witnessed myself change immensely. my attitudes, my humor, my dialect - my entire self. and now, in the most recent days i find myself trying to reach myself. floundering in what seems to be my own ignorance - making myself blind by searching to deep for too long on too many occassions. it's frustrating, tiring, exciting, and extremely difficult.
it's time to pull it all together - i've imitated, i've assimilated and in the next five weeks i absolutely must innovate. with understanding what is of the here and now, i can adapt to what it demands: okay so this college life, and these past 4 months was how a high school boy detached from home reacted to it. it's time to be a college guy. it's time to be a musician. it's time to stop being just a dreamer and be a dreamer and an achiever.
in life there are great changes. with great changes come personal revolutions that inspire personal innovations (no matter how big or small).
it is the intellectual "survival of the fittest".
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