how powerful a feeling when you share a common purpose with other people. when you can create something beautiful with other people. when with other people you feel love and energy. there are these strong, intangible bonds that we form through our experiences when we share them with other people. when that strength grows, our strength grows, and we grow. as a musician i experience these collaborations, the comming together of people, a lot. in any ensemble setting, no matter what the size, i find strength in others that i make music alongside. i could never imagine a solitary life. sharing time, music, in all - life elicits a plethora of feelings. in past few days i've had some really strong experiences that made me feel some of those feelings.
here i am at suny potsdam. there is this fantastic basketball team that is currently running undefeated that plays d iii representing our school. one of my homies had this notion to start a pep band, and rally potsdam bear support. it's a band, with a rag tag instrumentation that had never played together before, and we barely practiced - we were horrible.
as exciting as the victory was, it was the yelling and screaming in time with all the fans that felt the greatest. there were lots of people who didn't want to see potsdam lose. i honestly believe, that the banter from the pep band pumped up the home team so much that they were able to keep the momentum up, and the encouragement of those cheers boost their spirits. had it been an away game and they played like that in the first half, they would've gotten trashed. it's that feeling of unity, the feeling that there are hundreds of fans in that same gym who are screaming and singing at the top of their lungs that pulled the potsdam bears together. that was a feeling of strong, brute encouragement. like we, as the fans, were apart of some struggle, and assumed as much resposibility as the players to keep the drive alive.
another fact that is ever present is the fact that i have found here a fantastic group of friends. college is the toughest challenge that any of us have had to face, and it's a lot of pressure on us. i will swear by the fact that music is my ultimate escape, but here at potsdam it's my escape and my chore. the only purest release i have here, that really helps me unwind is heading up to ks2 and knowing that there is always at least a few (if not several) people to just sit down and chill out with. Or heading out for the day with Billy, tripx, and company. we're just a bunch of kids commin together to chat some, and relieve the major stress that is college.
i would quickly liken the feeling that i get with these homies to family. just knowing that i have some people to watch my back, keep me on track, help me with hardships, support me in my accomplishments and share some woes makes me so comfortable up here. this college thing has been so difficault and i'm greatful that they're apart of my experience here. much love for them.
finally, there was this talent pagent last week at crane called the holiday convocation. there were a whole bunch of goofy acts that we watched. there is a tradition in potsdam, that for the final act everyone: participants and audience sing silent night together and then silently leave the theater. everyone stood and the group broke into several harmonies and it produced this gentle, magic sound that echoed through snell theater. i have never heard a more beautiful version of silent night.
there was something about how all of us, some strangers, some friends came together for one purpose. to uphold the holiday tradition and sing silent night to add some closure to the semester. and somehow we all understood that this was something that was meant to be made beautiful. together, without words, we created a soft, divine sound. i know it is cliche, but really - my spine tingled the entire time. i really felt the precence of the ensemble, and the purpose to make beautiful music. for a few minutes we were unified.
i was exiting the theater and before i could think that i was one of the only people who really felt the experience, there was a girl crying and she said to her friend "i can't believe tommorow is my last day in crane, ever." music is powerful, music made together can at times create something indescribable.
so - thank you friends and thank you strangers. one
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