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Subject:hah
Time:03:43 pm
sadly i'm not much of a live journal fo.

go to my website tho: www.jbrickman.com
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Subject:11.11.05 - Soulive | live @ montreal
Time:05:32 pm
if you have an oppurtunity to catch soulive live - do it.
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Subject:live
Time:01:22 am
we work so hard. so hard. especially when in the college situation, we're making multiple deposits without being able to withdraw anything from the experience. we won't be able to reap what we sow for a long time.

but can't we still live?
there is so much to explore and experience. it doesn't take a riveting adventure to make you feel alive. the world is a big place, and complex down to the fine detail of a snowflake.

everyone once in a while (like on the weekend) cut yourself a huge slice of life and eat it all - it is sweet. get out there and do something. why not do multiple activities in a day? feel the air, the water, the ground beneath you - know that you are on this earth.

there's no reason to spend all our days going through the motions, or giving up our brains to some mindless, idle activity.

it feels best to get out (maybe even stay in) and just be.
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Subject:a goal made by goals
Time:11:49 am
i realized why i feel so much more satisfied here at college than at home.

we are all here because of one ultimate goal. we want to be something, live some life, have some effect. it's a long (maybe endless) road to reach that point of satisfaction. it is here at college that i am doing almost everything in my power, with as much time as pheasalbe to reach that one goal. i always know what my one goal is but i never really dwell upon it. it's just there, waiting to be attained and being sought after.

but the glorious and hideous thing about college is that it distracts us from our main goal with tons of smaller goals and obligations. my focus in on what has be done within the semester, the month, the week, sometimes i'm focused (or extremely worried about) on a smaller goal that i have to accomplish in the day. in accomplsihing these smallers goals (for the most part) we can be contented in that we are making progress towards our ultimate goal.

however, we must not let the smallers goals and expectations of college consume us. we cannot become overwhelemed by thoughts of "i hate all this work." and though some of the work maybe bullshit, i have comfidence in this institution and believe that all this work that i'm going through is helping me prepare for the world (that's potsdam's job right?). i will always have in sight what i want to be, and overcome these obstacles that i have purposely put in front of me as an exercise.

the feeling of working hard towards the goal is rewarding.
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Subject:please help me
Time:03:04 am
Current Mood:i'm sorry for
i want, more than anything, to help the world and bring people together.

but i live in a society where self interest is what fuels the motivation for success.

one
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Subject:silent night
Time:10:50 pm

faith is a powerful thing. and even though i'm not of the faith that is being celebrated this 24th of december, i can still feel its presence. i feel it through the knowledge that tonight, all across the world, people are coming together to their places of worship and homes to celebrate one thing; one cause. this is the eve of the birth of christ - but it is something greater than that. it can be said that it is this evening, more than any other evening, that a great collective of people pray for peace. i could swear that the closest feeling to the utopian "silent night" happens on this night every year.

in my senior year in high school i watched a documentary on the vietnam war. i learned that on the eve of christmas in 1967, miles and miles of trenched in soldiers together sang the song "silent night". i was interested to learn more about it and i came across a document on the net in which a soldier recalls his personal experience that night: "The singing came from the many thousands of North Vietnamese troops in the surrounding hills, and they were singing "Silent Night" in English! The most amazing thing was that the guys inside our perimeter joined in and sang several verses of "Silent Night" along with the North Vietnamese!" (Chris Anonymous http://storyteller.net/articles/21). in what was hell on earth all through the 60s, there was one night of true peace and unification. (music binds us)

like the soldiers in vietnam that night, i feel the comfort that this night seems to have. this the greater peace compared to all other nights. i can feel that faith.

one other thing: although i am not of the christian faith, i would like to set aside all commercialismand secular traditions (even though i previously stated, there is so much that can be drawn from the spirit of christmas) to remind everyone that this day is to celebrate that one occasion two thousand and 4 years ago: "And there were in the same country shepherds, abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them! And they were sore afraid ... And the angel said unto them, "Fear not! For, behold, I bring you tidings o great joy, which shall be to all my people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ, the Lord." - as told by linus in "a charlie brown christmas".

wouldn't it be so much better if every night felt like this night did?

peace on earth and goodwill toward men - every night of the year.

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Subject:so what?
Time:10:44 pm
what will you do later in life to justify the space that you take up?

we all need each other.
lets make it a better place to be. 1
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Subject:reinvention for adaptation
Time:12:41 am
i've witnessed, almost from the 3rd person, myself in it's entirety, thrown into a completely new life. i watched as i had to accept the new place - my surroundings somewhat foreign. i watched as i adjusted to a new diet. i watched as my schedule, the times i function, shifted and extended. i watched as myself - the boy made from home and the people that were of my childhood and teenage years - interact with a completely new group of people. for the past 4 months i have been detached, overwhelmed by all that was new, and from that place apart i witnessed myself change immensely. my attitudes, my humor, my dialect - my entire self. and now, in the most recent days i find myself trying to reach myself. floundering in what seems to be my own ignorance - making myself blind by searching to deep for too long on too many occassions. it's frustrating, tiring, exciting, and extremely difficult.

it's time to pull it all together - i've imitated, i've assimilated and in the next five weeks i absolutely must innovate. with understanding what is of the here and now, i can adapt to what it demands: okay so this college life, and these past 4 months was how a high school boy detached from home reacted to it. it's time to be a college guy. it's time to be a musician. it's time to stop being just a dreamer and be a dreamer and an achiever.

in life there are great changes. with great changes come personal revolutions that inspire personal innovations (no matter how big or small).

it is the intellectual "survival of the fittest".
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Subject:wtf is it about
Time:01:36 am
if you passively live your life, while asking few questions and making little or no inquisitions, i am jealous of you.
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Subject:it can be frustrating
Time:12:59 am

the grass is always greener on the other side. cause when you walk outside your door every morning, you see the same the lawn. and you can try to feed it, and take out the weeds but for how everything worldly works, the grass over on the other side will be greener. only cause you don't fully understand the grass on the otherside. you haven't stepped in it, dug through the soil, felt it on your back when you look at the clouds.

so why is it that, at times, it's difficault to appreciate your own yard, as beautiful as it may be? it will never compare to the illusion of assumptions. it looks like the other side is perfect, but will it be when you get there. how can you understand fully what the other side is like until you've taken the full leap over to it? will you miss the original side when you take the leap? will you hate yourself for releasing what you had entirely, for something far below satisfactory? even though you can play the conservative, there is no sure bet. what do you have? what are you missing? oh you're winning and losing. how frustrating -

yearning is burning. change is scary. consequences can range from wonderous to horrifying. so is the grass really greener on the otherside?

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